Blessings in the Brokenness

Can I just take a minute and address something I’ve heard so often lately?

In the last several weeks I have heard over and over again stories of people who were in tough, trying situations and prayed out to God saying they would spend their life serving Him if He would simply rescue them. I’ve also heard over and over again people say “God won’t give you more than you can handle.”

Wait. Can we just admit that both of those things give a totally skewed view of the God we serve?!

God will absolutely give you more than you can handle because in those times you must rely on His strength. This is when He teaches us the most. If we could  handle everything on our own, why would we ever reach out to God? He will never give you more than you can handle with Him but often we forget the last part.

And as far as the first set of stories go, I’m not saying they aren’t true or that those people are wrong, but I do believe this sends a confusing message to hurting people. If I pray that same prayer and I am left in my situation does God love me less? Do those people have a formula for prayer that I don’t know? Because God doesn’t always work that way as much as we might hope. We don’t get to bargain with God to get what we want. He’s not looking for in the moment, rash promises, but rather lives fully devoted to Him long-term. And I’d argue that those lives are developed amidst these very trials. They are developed when God says “No, this is not going to disappear. I’m not calming the storm right now, but I will calm you and teach you if you will come to Me.”

God is sovereign. He knows that sometimes we need the flame in our life in order to be refined.

I think one of the most beautiful stories I have heard concerning this is a metaphor relating to God as shepherd and us as sheep. Shepherds sometimes have sheep that simply will not follow them. They get lost, stray from the path and put themselves in great danger by leaving the flock. When this happens, a shepherd will break that sheep’s legs.

I get it, this sounds really cruel, but wait.

With its legs broken, the sheep must be carried everywhere. Therefore, this is really more of a burden on the shepherd. But after weeks of the shepherd carrying the sheep around keeping it safe and close during its healing, the sheep will walk again. After this experience, the sheep will never wander or stray because it has been carried and has come to know and love the shepherd. 

I think this makes a great picture of our walk with God. Sometimes God allows us to stay in a broken state so that He can carry us. So we will learn to love Him and know Him more. So that when we can walk again, we will know His love so much that we would never stray again.

I know this has been true in my life, in the brokenness I have come to know God in ways I never could have in the calm seas.

 What broken situation is God allowing you to remain in so that you can call to Him and come to know Him more?
“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.”

Psalm 34:18 ESV  

 I like how The Message puts it even more-
“If your heart is broken, you’ll find God right there;
if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath.”

Psalm 34:18 

His Mercies are New Every Morning: Hope for the Busy Heart

Someone asked me tonight how on earth I was balancing all the different things in my life right now (college classes, working every day, being on student leadership, etc).  I laughed and responded that I don’t sleep (which is true many times), but as the night has passed, I am realizing that answer was all wrong.

   How am I doing it all? By God’s grace alone. There is so, so much truth in Lamentations 3:22-23 “Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed; for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.

     We serve a God who is so, so faithful and He truly does provide new mercies for us each and every morning. It is one thing to know this promise and another to experience it- to need it to be true in your life. He promises in Jeremiah 29:13 that we will find Him if we seek Him. Could we be any more blessed? What a privilege it is to serve a loving and personal God!

    A good friend once told me that God asks us to pray for daily bread, not bread for the next month. If there is one thing I am learning in the season of chaos and busyness, it is that seeking the Lord is a daily process and when we seek Him, He promises to provide. It’s not always about having strength for the week, but rather strength for the moment. When I cannot rely on my own strength any longer, I am forced to search for God’s strength moment by moment.  

    And then even after God shows me that I can’t do it on my own, I still try over and over again. I fail. I get back up and refocus on God. You know the beautiful thing about our Savior though? He is faithful, even when I am faithless. (2 Timothy 2:13)

  So my friends, that is how I am surviving this crazy season of life and I could not be more grateful for the opportunities it has given me to grow closer to the Lord. With His mercy and joy, I can and will continue to live out His calling on my life and I pray you will as well. 

  Joshua 1:9  “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

Being Slow to Obey is Still Disobeying


I work at a local private school and my experiences there have given me more than enough illustrations for hundreds of blog posts, but today something I heard struck me in an unforgettable way. As one of the kids was cleaning up and getting ready to leave (in the slowest possible “mom I’m not ready to go: manner), his mom said to him “Remember son, being slow to obey is still disobeying.”

I have thought about those words all evening. I may no longer be the kid who just wants a few more minutes with her friends and therefore takes considerably longer to clean up her toys, but how often do I respond to God essentially the same way? I’m not that kid, but I am that Christian, I think we all are in ways. God asks me to do something and rather than out-rightly saying no, I say “later.” I tell God that I will obey when I’m ready as if I have any right to reason with Him. I do things on my timetable, when I’m comfortable, but that’s never what God asked of me.

I’m not sure when it became okay for me to tell God to wait, but it’s wrong and it’s sin. Just like a parent who expects immediate obedience, God is my authority and He not only expects, but deserves my obedience. Waiting on my timetable isn’t an option and quite frankly it’s silly to believe that following my plans could ever work out better than my simple and prompt obedience to His commands. 

So now, as I strive to remember that “being slow to obey is still disobeying,” I’m going to seek to “put away my toys” more quickly and less begrudgingly. I’m going to stop and ask God to give me a heart that eagerly obeys His callings immediately and I pray that you’ll do the same. And tomorrow… I am going to hug that sweet little 6 year old who taught me a great big lesson today!

You know all those things you’ve always wanted to do, but never made time for? Well this is mine. I’ve always joked about starting a blog and here it is, I’m typing my first post.

 I guess we should get to know each other. Here it goes… I am a 19 year old student at Liberty University. I talk too much. I love Jesus more than anything else in life. I’m passionate, I thrive on busyness and I am incredibly stubborn. Right up there next to Jesus on my love list is kids. I want to be a mom and God has given me a huge heart for children. I guess that’s why I’m an Elementary Education major! I love the innocence and faith of children. I’m addicted to Pinterest and I love to cook, shop and do cheesy girly things. I love sappy chick flicks (secretly, I think every girl does and is just afraid to admit it). I mean what girls heart doesn’t skip a beat when the sensitive, extremely attractive guy says the perfect thing to the girl in a movie and promptly kisses her?! It’s the heart of a woman, we all want that kind of love. Speaking of love, I am currently single and by that I mean I’ve never actually dated anyone. Don’t panic, I know it’s weird! I really feel that dating is for marriage and if I wouldn’t marry someone I won’t date them. No worries, I know God is preparing someone out there!

You should know about my family I suppose, since they are a pretty big part of my life. My dad is a pastor. He planted a church when I was about 4 and has faithfully pastored it for almost 15 years now. This summer we will be building and we could not be more excited. My dad is amazing and has shown me true Biblical manhood and what it means to be treasured by that kind of man. My mom works as a special needs aide and reading specialist at a local elementary school. She also has an incredible heart for the Lord and loves children and missions. She lived in Ecuador for two years and is fluent in Spanish. Now that I’m an adult, I can happily call her one of my closest friends. Lastly, I have a 22 year old brother. He just graduated Liberty last spring and is a worship major at our church. He is charming, funny and on fire for Christ (he’s also single ). Being a pastor’s family is certainly an adventure; sometimes amazing, sometimes trying, but most definitely what God has called us to. Everyone always says we should write a book so this may be as close as it gets, but we’ll let you in on this crazy life of ours!

So there it is, in a compressed form, that’s me and this is my sweetly broken life.


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